Sucked cock for my goddes, Sarah38DD

Well mistress. I went around his house and he was grinning when he opened the door. He already knew what i had come for because i told him. When i got in he offered me a drink and i was feeling sick (I was really worried) and said no. Then we got to talking and he kept taking the piss out of me saying stuff like "For a guy who isnt gay you sure jumped at the opportunity to suck my cock". So i explained to him why i was doing it, and that i have a goddess who i obey and how she wanted me to do it (Meaning you) and he found that hilarious. And was like, "So you arent gay, but youre going to suck a cock. And you are justifying it by saying a woman wanted you to? Sound like excuses to me" So i argued back. Told him i didnt want to do it. So he smiled and said "Fine, leave. I dont want you to do it. Just make sure you tell your goddess that you failed". Which got me worrying. He saw that and gave me a really sly grin and said, "Well, i might let you. If you beg. And i dont mean half arse it. I mean proper beg me. Convince me why i should let you". So i started begging him. I've never begged for something so much that i didnt want. And he finally gave in and led me to his bedroom. He then sat on the bed and told me to take off all my clothes slowly. I didnt want to have to beg again so i just did as he said. And when i was naked he told me to sit on the bed and wait for him. I was so nervous and felt so wrong sat in a mans bed naked waiting for him to come back. When he finally returned he had a blonde wig, a purple coloured lipstick and a pair of high heels. He told me that he had used them for a stag do where they all went in drag, and that wearing it was too gay for even him. But then demanded i wear them since i like being dominated so much. I protested again and he laughed and told me to leave if i wasnt going to do exactly as he wanted. So i reluctantly did it. I slipped into the heels which were a little too big. Put on the wig and did my lipstick. Then he took off his jeans and pants and i felt like i was going to throw up from the nerves. He was soft but his cock was so big. Like it was average size soft but was really fat. He then told me to get on my knees and crawl slowly to his dick. So i did. And as i crawled closer and i realised what i was going to do my dick started to get hard. This made me feel ashamed because i always thought i was straight. When i reached his dick he stopped me and told me to just kiss it. So i did. It felt so warm on my lips and i could feel the blood starting to pump into it. He kept calling me "Little closet fag" and said he was going to "Make me wish i had just come out straight away". He started getting hard and i was ashamed. I was fully hard at this point and looking at his semi hard sick made me realise how small i really was. He then put his hand on the back of my head and told me to open my mouth. I closed my eyes and waited for what felt like an eternity, until i felt the head of his cock pass over my lips and into my mouth. It was so warm and big, and it had a taste i cant really explain....but i liked it goddess. He pushed it all the way to the back of my throat and my gag reflex started kicking in. He laughed and pulled it back away from the throat and told me to start sucking slowly. So i did. MY cock was throbbing and leaking as i was sucking on his. And i could hear him laughing at me but that made me enjoy it more. I was sucking for about five minutes before he told me to take a deep breath. SO i did and he pushed it back to my throat again, and held it there. I was sure he was about to cum as he said "You ready you little fag?". I grunted a yes and was ready to taste his cum...but it wasnt cum. He started pissing down my throat. It took me a moment to realise and when i did i tried to pull away but he held my head there. I felt so sick yet so excited. This was the first time anyone had ever really dominated me in person before. When he had filled me full of piss he pushed me off his cock to the floor and i started gagging and swearing at him. He laughed at me and said "You want to act like a bitch i'll treat you like one". Then he knelt on my arms and sat on my chest. His knees in my arms really hurt. He then laughed really loud and said "You're hard! You're enjoying this you fag". I didnt even deny it goddess. I was so hard. I couldn't believe what was happening and i was loving it. He then jerked off and told me to keep my mouth open whilst he hurled insults at me. Eventually he came straight into my mouth and told me to hold it and taste it...but i didnt i swallowed it straight away and he got really angry. He slapped me hard across the face and climbed off me. He told me to get up so i did. then he said "Jerk that little finger you got for a dick". So i did without question. I was so horny goddess. He made me jerk until i came all over the floor then pushed my face down into my own mess like a dog and told me to lick it clean. I did. And i could really taste it. It was so salty and thick. Once i had finished he took a picture of me in the make up and wig, all naked with bits of my own cum on my face and told me sunday i have to go back round for more fun. Then demanded i got out. So i washed my face got dressed and left. When i was no longer feeling horny i felt so deeply ashamed and confused. I dont want to go back sunday, but there is a little voice in the back of my head telling me to go.